"You have shown a rare insight in what you have said...its not that i have changed but just that...everything in my life had a special place because i thought i had purpose in my life...without purpose i don't have anything to look forward to...it is purpose which gives me the energy to live and enjoy life "and since the day i have discovered that i have been leading a purposeless life..-my zest for life has slowly bled away...its not that i don't love you but just loving you without having to deserve the rest of love or affection makes it feel ...unfelt...love is to support to be there but what am i doing "in life that i would need support or deserve it. This lack of purpose not only is tormenting me but is also punishing those i love and the one thing i sometimes feel like screaming is that the world give me the time to do what i want in this life free of obligations and actually DESERVE what love or affection that people give me. My love of purpose is the love that drives everything in my life and such is my state that it has been snatched from me and i feel it going farther away every moment...i don't want to live life, have a family, do my duties because i would deserve and enjoy them only when i have thrown all myself to this world and won or attempted all battles which have a meaning..not like every other parasite who settler down and does what is expected like a slave without the feeling of loss that his life holds no more meaning..."
Monday, June 8, 2009
"Money...just My back up objective or everybody else's also? And why..if thats the case then the primary objective of everybody is just to lead a 'comfortable life' and just wishing to WASTE your life comfortably??!! No pursuit to make your life have any meaning? No higher motive and no aim except to let life pass you by and you see it pass by comfortably? Its a pathetic secondary objective too...and thats my back up plan? Hell no...if i put even half of my dkdc approach into what i want i can achieve much more..greater things...beyond dreams even...."
Why are guys nervous before girls or women? Its because girls have something they want, for that matter anything you Want and someone else can give it to you...makes you nervous. Because There's nothing standing between you getting it but you yourself. But what if i know and feel that it belongs to me? That its going to be mine come what may. I won't grovel or try extra hard...i just know that i have to be Me all the way and by being Me i Will get what i want."
"A man files a lawsuit against his ex-lover for not returning money he'd kept with her and the trial drags on for twenty years. The man wins the money in the end and more than that it takes twenty years of standing against each other to make them fall in love again.:-) "